i’m unhappy to say i’ve gained about 20 pounds this semester. there was a while when i had lost my wallet in Canada and it was being shipped back and all i was only able to feed myself with delivery pizza and chinese food. that two week period kind of fucked up my eating and exercise habits. i’m appearing as Ophelia in my university’s production of Hamlet and my costumes are really cute and i’d like my body to compliment them. so, i’m getting back on the bandwagon and my goal is to be down to 130 by the show, which is in about six weeks. can i do it? only one way to find out.
It’s 22.6! Holy shit!! Smack-dab in the middle of average. Happy day! Gym time. I admit I haven’t been in way too long. I’ve been doing my best to stay active, mostly longboarding around my neighborhood, but today it’s just too damn cold. I stopped going to the gym regularly because over the past few months I’ve been smoking a lot more than ever, and I found myself coughing a lot on the treadmill. That’s stupid, right?! I’ve cut down quite a lot, lately, though. Only about 3-6 cigarettes a day, so hopefully today I’ll be better. Just waiting for Mom to get home so I can ask for a ride. It’s just too damn cold to walk. Ugh I hate the winter.
Hey guys, I just wanted to show you (and myself) that I’ve made some progress since the summer! I didn’t realize I had made any, honestly, most days I feel like I’ve gained it all back. Clearly I was wrong, and these pictures have made me feel really good about my weight loss. I’ve reached my goal weight of 135, and I’d still like to lose another 10 by the end of spring semester. I am resolved to hit the gym 3+ times a week and get back on my running/lifting/yoga flow.
I feel really good about this. I honestly never thought I’d be this fit. :)
5 turkey-teriyaki meatballs :)
food-wise, i was very good today. i only racked up about 900 calories. i would normally eat more, but like i said, i didn’t get to go to the gym. there’s always tomorrow! also i didn’t drink enough water.
grandma’s amazing salad: mixed greens, corn, black beans, olives, feta, parmesan, olive oil, balsamic, tomatoes
Breakfast (at 3pm…i love winter break):
2 eggs, sunny side up
whole-wheat english muffin with 1 tbsp natural peanut butter, 2 tbsp craisins
coffee with coffeemate
off to the gym!! i missed this.
I’m home for winter break! I admit to getting very stressed out and impossibly busy during the semester, so it’s safe to say I fell off the wagon for a while. I didn’t gain any weight, thanks to staying active, but I do worry a bit that I’m getting a little bloated in the middle, and that my arms are much less defined than they were…So! I’m dedicating these five weeks to getting back in shape and hopefully going back to school looking and feeling better than ever!
On a slightly more personal note, I could really stand to improve my health for reasons unrelated to appearance. Like I said before, I really stressed myself out this semester, I feel as though I lost my grip on the control I gained from turning my life around this summer. It was astounding, the difference in my attitude and thus my life when I got back to college life which is inherently much more social than my life at home. I really lived in these past four months.
But, now, here I am: back home, out of shape, strung out, heart-broken, and filled with doubt. It’s time to take control again, make some progress, and go back refreshed with all I’ve learned through my experiences this semester in my back pocket, and continue on the fulfilling path of self-actualization, because I truly believe in order to be of any use to anyone else, you must first know and love yourself.